I am very bored my life at the moment is just an existence I sit in front of the computer day after day not doing anything productive any more it makes me fell useless I still don't have a job and its making me feel frustrated

I have been sick recently and my throat hurts.
I really take my health for granted.
but its nice to know im human now and again...
even though I don't fell like one...

Last night I accidentally drank too much cough medicine and it made me sick
my sister is going to a party and my relatives are here because they have no place to go
money is now a problem and I am not sure if my parents can make ends meet this time
I still have no girl and right now I am trying my best not to think about it
I dreampt I went to a great private collage filled with Japanese girls

my depression is creeping up on me again but I think I am doing a good job to suppress it
i just hope I can keep it that way....

today is Monday and I feel like I am now starting a new point in my life
I keep thinking something important is about to happen.