Summer school is starting now and I am exited about how things will turn out
I will try to exercise again starting to tomorrow hopefully my mom will stop making fatty foods
I hope I can make more friends this time around I fell like I have missed out alot in life
my sister might not go to collage in a way I think that is good for me since I can still have more appreciation in my home
Mia talked to me again and I told her how I felt I think I hurt her feelings but it was good to clear up how I felt about her we are still friends but she still wants to see me again
I also got a pen pal from japan so might be able to  have a forgin friend

Maybe if I try my best to exercise and study the wold will help me out too
I just hope it keeps its end of the deal...

I just want to enjoy life and fall in love with another person is that so difficult to ask from the world?
This is pushing me to the idea to exercise just to impress a girl
I just wish it did not need to be that way...

My long lost cousin of eleven years of age is here for the summer. He comes from my dad's side of the family and so far he is an ok kid though he is a bit hyper active but I guess I was that way too until I turned 9 when I came to Oregon. My depression is still having affect on me but hopefully with my first collage term over now these few days of vacation I have can some how ease the pain. I am expecting change soon either coming from me or from the world. My dad has promised me a bass guitAr but I don't think he will actually do good on his word especially with our position with money.

Oh god what kind of place is this?

With the school term coming to a close and my depression down again for now I feel like I am rediscovering life again ever since my hole army scandal
I am still looking for love and I did begin to make friend contact with a girl but I don't think she is interested

I feel like this will be a new start in my life its been a long time since I have felt care free
hopefully it will be better from here.