A while back I got a construction job and my life turned around for the better. I get paid 14$/hour and so far my job has been able to pay school, credit cards and a bunch of other stuff but I still wish I could travel.

Right now I need my first car... maybe I will get a Corvette.

Yesterday I was walking to my local burger shop near my house and walked up a ramp alone. I felt someone tap my shoulder so I turned around and there was nobody there.

I'm starting to get desperate again. I want to leave my parents house already and start my own life with a wife I don't even have. I wonder sometimes why I lead such a sad life all I do everyday is hate myself for who I am and when I try to cheer myself up and do something about my life. I lose motivation and ponder the point of even going on with this life. I know my time is short here but its taking to long to find love all the girls I meet are selfish and self centered.

I wonder if I did something to deserve this. If a man is left alone to his thoughts I can guarantee he will go insane, I just hope their is still time before I become hateful towards everyone I meet.