I took a small video of my dog today.

Its 2012 and I am still in the same position I was in since my last post. I still can't find a job and I think I will really go back to Illinois. My family does not want me to leave but I know I cant depend on them for all my needs. I always get depressed thinking about all of this so I try to keep myself occupied.

I wish I had a girlfriend to love. Being alone and unwanted is probably the most painful feeling a guy can have. I keep asking my god were i should go from here but I still haven't got an answer.

Things need to change soon.