I am 22 and in a few months I will be 23 wow I wish I could stop time...
Life is still the same here in my room. I am not in japan, I have no wife or girl, money is still a struggle and my dream car is still out of my grasp. wow im pathetic how am I to progress in this sad world? am I supposed to find god? If so how can I have solid proof? I always have doubt in the back of my mind so to say I believe I must be able to crush any feeling of what if nothing of this is real?

I realize I have not posted in almost a year but life is not being fair to me.
I hope I can look back at this later and laugh because right now I find it harder to keep going every morning.