Its been a few days here with my family and I already feel the stress of depending on others. My depression is definitely back but not at full force.

I can't stay here for long I need to find the same motivation I did back in Illinois. My moms cooking is making me sluggish and I feel like I'm getting too comfortable. Its not bad food but since we only eat Mexican dishes its getting difficult moving around without feeling lazy.

I'm starting to get really angry at myself for leaving. My family is important but I'm doing nothing with my life and just hating the world I see everyday is not helping either.

Were is my wife God?
I'm an honest guy just looking for love :'(