A couple of days ago I joined a dating web site.
So far so good I have been lowering my standards so I can meet as much girls as I can and I have been able to find some cute girls there but none have really messaged me back yet. My best friend rumel is leaving my neighborhood so I guess my man cave wont be disturbed as often. My dad forced me to eat a hole meal filled with grease and oil. Im really angry at him because my diet is pretty much ruined and I wont be able to eat in 7hours. I like to snack my way through the day eating small pices of bread or cherrios but he really went all out on me today. I told him to calm down that I am not dieing of hunger, I guess he can bear to look at me not reaching for a bag of oreos or chips now and again.

my head hurts from eating all that oily potato he made for me.
810calories jeez what a drag..

I just got Internet on my computer again so that means I will be able to blog more frequently. I have been on my diet now for a hole week and I have almost given up half way through it but now I think I will stick to it. It almost feels weird using my computer again. My boss is coming in about a week and a half so today I'm going to exercise until he comes back. Hopefully by then my body will be healthy enough to support the heavy labor.

Getting ready for a new hell.

Well my first week of vacation is over leaving me with only two weeks. My job is not easy so I thought I could work out a bit before this relaxing time is over. But lately all I have been doing is dieting by limiting my meals. If I find some courage in me today I might go but so far it does not feel that way.

My depression is coming and going almost as if I was bipolar. My video games put it off but I sometimes tear up alone at night.

A new start.

Mia and me are talking again after about a year of silence. I'm not so sure how to take it all in...

I got my phone after about 2 weeks of work. But the bill is really expensive. Today is promised myself I would start working out but I don't feel like actually doing it. I really hope my life starts getting better all this loneliness is really killing me inside.