I am going to collage soon and I am thinking about my future but again I am starting to get depressed. I think it is because nobody cares about me. The only person that really listens now is just my computer the life I have been living is sad and disgraceful to my family I just wish I could feel confident instead of hiding my own beliefs to them. When I die and go to heaven I will have a very long talk with god about why I did not meet a really nice girl when I was young.