I came back but I would rather not talk about boot camp for now lets just say there were some problems. Today I feel worthless and lost but feels like it will be perfect for a mental health day I hope I can get the feeling of guilt I have out of my mind its just too much for me to handle it feels like the size of a large pick up truck

My body wants to throw up really bad I have been failing on keeping my body healthy recently and I hope this new found depression wont destroy me some times I wish I can find a large expansion of wilderness and scream to the top of my lungs